I want to be...

We all want to be something else.  "I want to be _____________ (smarter, skinner, stronger, healthier, richer, happy, patient, married, loved, a parent, accepted, vulnerable, known, beautiful, etc....you fill in the blank).  We all do it at some point in our life.  If you say you don't you are lying to yourself.  Why are we always striving to be more than we are?  Why are we not happy with who we see in the mirror everyday? 

I have struggled with this for years. Recently, I have been convicted that this is a very selfish thought process.  Scriptures say that we have been made in the image of God.  Think about that.  There is something about you that reflects the very nature of God.  That is humbling.  I (and you) have been uniquely created by God.  When we look at ourselves and think that what we are isn't good enough, that is telling God that what he made is junk.  We are telling him that being made in His image, the creator of everything, the most powerful, majestic, just, gracious and loving God, isn't good enough.  We always want more thinking it will make us happier.  Selfish. 

In realizing this, I decided that I want to be......content...... in all circumstances (and right now, some of my circumstances are really making this difficult).  Honestly though, being content in God and how he made me is the only thing that is really going to make me happy.  I want to challenge my lifestyle and frame of mind to be more like Christ.

I want to be healthy, not skinny.

I want to focus on my awesome marriage, not the fact that we don't have children yet.

I want to find one joyful thing in everyday, not focus on negative aspects of my days.

I want to look in the mirror and be astounded by how God created me, not focus on my flaws.

I want to be a reflection of my creator in every aspect of my life......something beautiful.